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Honestly, It’s Okay to Grieve After You Quit Smoking Marijuana

Beautiful day lovely humans. Thank you so much to reading yet another blog post of mine. If this is your first time here- LET ME LOVE ON YOU!!! -muahzzz 😙💚

Today, I wanted to share something that has been on my heart. It’s a little embarrassing for me to admit this, but it’s true. There is a time that I can remember, where I literally said aloud, ‘what would be the purpose of living if I can’t get high?’ Of course, that may not have been the exact quote. But I just couldn’t picture a life worth living if I didn’t smoke marijuana. (I wasn’t fully aware of my value yet)

of course, that was just the addiction talking

&& no, I wasn’t having suicidal ideations- I just was deep in a marijuana addiction and thought smoking weed was THEE THING for me to do every day.

HIGHLIGHTS

• Cannabis Use Disorder often begins as a coping mechanism for trauma and emotional pain.
• Quitting marijuana can feel like losing a close (toxic) friend.
• In my opinion, it’s normal and HEALTHY to grieve the loss of marijuana- even when logically, quitting smoking is the right thing to do.
• Reflecting on the negative experiences from being addicted to marijuana, as well as the negative consequences of smoking in general can help strengthen a person’s commitment to quit smoking.
• Focusing on personal progress, and the benefits of sobriety (such as a clearer mind) can help strengthen a commitment to stop smoking marijuana.
• Recovery is possible && it’s worth celebrating at every step- Celebrate each day!
• Compassion towards oneself is essential during transition to sobriety.
• A free program called the 30 Day Lung Cleanse was created to help support people on their journey to recovery💚

Marijuana Had ‘Always’ Been There for Me

Personally, cannabis use disorder manifested into my life when I was in high school. I was already suffering from trauma that I’d experienced as a child. Smoking became a relief for me. It was an outlet. Something that helped me feel safe (&& included) when very little else did.

I smoked for over 15 years! Often multiple times a day. If someone hurt my feelings, I would smoke. I’d smoke when I was excited. When I was sad/depressed. && on the days that I was low on food, having marijuana to smoke helped keep hunger at bay.

Oddly, even when I didn’t have much money, marijuana always seemed to find its way to me. It was as if there was some kind of a weed fairy looking out for me.

but in all actuality, it wasn’t looking at for me

I was struggling. Ignoring reality. && I was completely disregarding the fact that I was wasting precious formative years of my life. Yes, marijuana provided me with a (false) sense of comfort, when the weight of reality was too much to acknowledge. Cannabis use Disorder provided me with a friend- albeit/ a toxic one. Thankfully, I was able to let it go. && so can you🫂

It’s Okay to Grieve

If you’re feeling lost after quitting smoking marijuana, or even cigarettes, that’s a real emotion that I encourage you to process.

Let’s personify cannabis use disorder for a moment. MaryJane was a friend. But let’s call her what she is- toxic. && to the person reading this whose mind began thinking of the ‘medicinal’ properties of marijuana. Apply that same concept to Morphine. It was there for you when you were hurting, but too much is toxic.

yes, it held space for you when you were lonely

&& it gave you a way to escape reality when it was just too much.

“You can know that it was the right choice to leave && still grieve everything that you shared with it.”

In a way, it’s really similar to leaving an unhealthy relationship. Because let’s be honest, MaryJane IS unhealthy when a person has cannabis use disorder.

Let’s liken Cannabis Use Disorder to an abusive relationship. A person can know with full certainty that they made the right choice to walk away from their abuser. It’s normal for that person to still think of all of the ‘good’ memories. That kind of history doesn’t just disappear because the right choice was made.

The same is true when it comes to marijuana.

I Actually Do Encourage People to Remember the Bad Times

Here’s what I encourage people to do when their minds begin reminiscing about the ‘good times.’ Think about the ways that cannabis use disorder actually harmed you.

• The unsafe situations that you were placed in, all for the sole purpose of smoking marijuana.
• The times you chose to go get high instead of showing up for the people that you love.
• The money you allocated to purchasing your sack before paying your rent, bills, or tithes.
• How often cannabis use disorder dictated nearly every moment of your life.

I encourage people to sit with the facts during this time- as opposed to remembering how good smoking marijuana made them feel. I also encourage others to take pride in their progress.

Let’s See How Far We’ve Come

It’s important to have a set of goals. && to have a visual reminder of your choice to quit smoking marijuana. Let’s celebrate the fact that you went an entire day without smoking marijuana! Not because of a drug screen for a job, not because the resort didn’t allow smoking, but because you made the conscious choice to do so! That 12% outweighed the 88%. That’s HUGE!!

Whether its day one, day seven, or 365- I’m proud of you!

Let’s take in the fact that there are already things shifting in life. Is there a weight that has been released without even trying? Has there been any clarity that’s returned to your mind? What about the small things like birds chirping in the air, the warmth from the sunlight, the peacefulness of a quiet day, are able to notice these things now that you’re actually present for them?

the same is true for nicotine

These realizations can also be had for those of who are feeling lost quitting smoking cigarettes. As well as for anything else that was abused throughout the years to get you through the day.

Now that you have left it, allow yourself to have the time to grieve it. Give yourself permission. You’ve earned this. I’m rooting for you! && I’m proud of you!!

Conclusion

I’m not sure why people are led to believe that everything is sunshine and roses when a person quits smoking. When in reality it can alter the entire course of one’s life. They may stop socializing with some people and stop frequenting certain places. They may even feel mental anguish after separating from the thing that they once held near and dear to their heart.

I’m here to remind you that it’s perfectly normal && okay to feel your emotions. It’s healthy to process and release emotions. It’s stagnation that causes damage.

so, be kind to yourself

If you have a set back after being sober for three days or realize that you’ve quit smoking but have started drinking, just relax. Celebrate the fact that you went three days without smoking for the first time in who knows how long. && acknowledge that if you’ve ditched one bad habit, you can ditch another one. You’ve got this!

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Remember, all things are possible- they are! The best is yet to come, && the odds are always in your favor. Take care.

-Divine Dime💚👑